I’m been wanting to write a post like this for such a long time but never really knew the right way to word it, or whether I should even bother; but I feel like writing it down in a blog post will be a way to document how I feel now and compare it to how I feel maybe a month or 2 down the line.
For as long as I can remember, I have had this over powering desire to impress; I guess we all do to a certain extent. Obviously the urge to impress can be a great thing as it pushes us to be the best versions of ourselves but the thought of someone thinking badly of me or me not being ‘good enough’ literally keeps me up at night. Everything I do, I always think about the worst possible consequence and often find myself taking on too much to please other people instead of doing things that make me happy; like blogging.
This is something that, especially over the last month or so, I have been trying to change; I need to find the right balance of doing well and impressing but also focusing on myself and what makes me happy. Life is so short and it’s important to put yourself first sometimes, it doesn’t make you rude or selfish; it’s all about prioritising.
The best time for me to focus on myself, I find, is the evenings because I can literally shut myself off from everyone and do what I want. My favourite thing to do is run myself a nice Lush bath with a few candles; it helps me relax so much and clear my mind after a busy or stressful day (sometimes I sit in the bath for so long I start to doze off) Usually once I’ve dragged myself out of the bath, I make myself a hot chocolate and sit in bed and binge watch Gossip Girl for the 100th time. This is usually the time of night when I turn my work phone off and completely unwind.
During the weekends, I am trying to make more of an conscious effort to ‘book an appointment with myself’. This includes sitting down to write blogs posts and go out with my camera, both of which make me so incredibly happy.
Sometimes it’s easy to fall back in to old ways but I am determined to finally start putting myself first and finding the right balance between that and helping others.
Over the New Year, I spent a week in Barcelona with some of my favourite people. I completely fell in love with the city; the beach, the food, the weather, the little-cobbled side streets and of course the sangria!
Obviously being December/January time, I prepared myself for cold, rainy days but was pleasantly surprised to be greeted every morning with blue skies and sun…I actually forgot what sun on my skin felt like. I spent every morning trying to strategically throw some outfits together and I’m here today to share those with you.
Day 1: For the most part; day 1 was spent travelling, doing a food shop for the apartment and having a walk around before dinner. I spent most of the day in jeans and a jumper, which was pretty boring but I did freshen up and change my outfit for the evening.
Also – Massive thank you to my best friends Zoe and Amy for being the best and taking all these photos.
I hope you all had the best time celebrating with loved ones and are ready for all of the adventures that lie ahead in 2018. I spent the New Year with some of my favourite people in Barcelona and while I was away, I thought about what I want to achieve from this new year and what I want my resolutions to be.
Blogging – when I first started my blog, I used to post 2 or more times a week and was so involved with the community but over the last year I really fell out of love with it. It was hard to find something engaging to write about and I just lacked any kind of motivation. Well; that’s (hopefully) going to change in 2018. I might not go back to posting 2 times a week, but I definitely want to make more of an effort to keep my blog active and get some kind on content up online.
Learn a Language – This is something I’ve wanted to do for so long but never made time for it. Some of my best friends now live in Spain so I want to learn Catalan so when I go out there, they don’t have to constantly translate for me.
Read More – It’s no secret that I don’t read…ever and it’s always something that I say I want to get in to but never do. Last year I read 4 book (which is a huge deal for me) and I want to keep that going. I actually find it relaxes me quite a bit, especially if I read on the train to work. I’m currently reading Me Before You so I’m starting off on the right foot, let’s see how long it lasts.
Take Polaroids – A couple of years ago, my sister bought me a polaroid camera and I used to use it all the time but lately, it’s been collecting dust on my bed side table. I love polaroids and want to document as much of this year as possible so instead of just taking pictures on my phone or my digital camera, I want to start getting more use out of my little instax.
Travel – such a cliche but I want to make this the year of trips and I don’t necessarily mean big holidays, but little weekends away to different parts of the UK. For Christmas, my boyfriend got me one of those maps thats you scratch off where you’ve been so I want to start putting that to good use.
I love this time of year, every cliché aspect of it; from cosy nights in with blankets, films and hot chocolate to wandering around Winter Wonderland in the freezing cold drinking copious amounts of mulled wine.
I was talking to my friends about the little things we do every Christmas time and it got me thinking about all of the traditions that I have.
Decorating The Tree
I’m a bit sad about this one this year because it’s now 9th December and I still haven’t put mine up yet but…
Decorating the tree is one of my favourite things to do; nothing beats having it lit up in the corner of the lounge while you sit watching ‘Elf’ for the gazillionth time. Our tree is alway full of different decorations which including little hand made ones me and my sister made and 4 snowflakes that represent the 4 of us. We never really have a colour scheme but I wouldn’t change it. Usually, mum and I will put on a Christmas film and get to work. Well I say work; mum puts the tree together and adds the lights; I just stand there and wait to unleash the decorations.
You know it’s Christmas time when Winter Wonderland opens in Hyde Park. I try to go at least once every year as it really gets me in the festive mood and it’s so much fun. I love looking around the market stalls at peoples hand made crafts, eating an unreal amount of food, drinking all the mulled wine and hot chocolate and going on the rides. It never fails to disappoint and I’m so excited to go next weekend with all of my favourite people.
We have so many things that we do on Christmas Eve, which we have been doing since I was little. One of them is brand new pyjamas! Mum and Dad would always treat me and my sister to a new pair of holiday pjs and still to this day, it’s one of the things that I look forward to the most.
Usually, once I have had a Lush bath and go into said new pyjamas, it’s then time to get into bed and watch all the Christmas movies. Well, I say all the movies, it’s more like 1 before I fall asleep.
Being the ultimate wuss, Halloween is one of my least favourite holidays (after Valentine’s Day) but of course I couldn’t turn down an invite to the best Halloween party of the year, Makeup Revolution’s Halloween party.
Every year MUR, hold, hands down the best party and this year was no exception. The party was held at One in Marylebone and from the minute I arrived I knew it was going to be amazing. Upon arrival, me and my sister; Holly, we’re greeted with a choice of drinks from wine to special ‘Bloodtini’s’ and other cocktails. The room was full with all kinds of spooky decorations like coffins which displayed Halloween makeup on, to a long table full of spiders and pumpkins.
Upstairs led to the ‘Creepy Convent’ which was full of actors walking around scaring everyone. Honestly, I spent the first 10 minutes standing with my back to the wall because I was so scared, but it was actually so much fun.
The whole night was spent dancing and catching up with my sister who I don’t get to see nearly as much as I’d like to as she’s away at uni doing her Masters. It was great to also catch up with Sophie who I met at MUR’s birthday party earlier in the year.
Thank you so much Makeup Revolution for inviting me; I had the best time and I already can’t wait for next years!
I absolutely looooove going to blogger events, probably because making new blogger friends is one of my favourite things to do. Last Thursday, I was kindly invited down to spend the evening at Layer Marney Tower to celebrate the launch of the South East Bloggers Club.
The minute I arrived, I was blown away with the venue, a historic tower situated in the Essex countryside; it was perfect! At the door, we were greeted by the lovely girls behind the SEBC along with various drinks from prosecco to milkshakes and a lovely goodie bag filled with information about all the local brands that were at the event.
Each brand had their own space so it meant you could spend ages chatting and getting to know them and it was great to see how interested they were in our blogs and how much they valued building a relationship. The range of businesses there was amazing too including Betty Booths photo booths, Perrywood Garden Centre and Secret Hamper so there was a real mixture of people to talk to, which was great.
I loved chatting to and networking with local businesses including some local charities like Brainwave; I even had my first bit of Christmas pudding; thanks to Lillypuds. It was so great to be surrounded by so many positive, creative people and to finally celebrate the launch of the SEBC. I can’t wait to see what you girls have up your sleeve, but I’m so glad to be a part it; thanks for the best evening.
I’ve been a little MIA for the past couple of weeks, for a number of different reasons but I’m so ready to get back into the blogging world because I have honestly missed it so much.
Recently, Lush released their new Jelly face masks so being the face mask advocate I am, I had to try them out. I picked up ‘Bunny Moon’ because it contains honey and camomile which is known for leaving your skin really soft and calm.
I didn’t really know what to expect as most of the face masks I use are charcoal ones but I was really excited to see what the jelly like consistency would be like. As soon as I opened the pot, I knew I’d love it; it smelt so fresh and sweet and had little gold flexes of glitter on the top.
The consistency really wasn’t what I expected at all, I thought it would be more like a runny gloop but the best way to describe it is like a chocolate mousse; which was a lot better because it made applying it a lot easier. Like with all Lush products, a little goes a long way; which is great because it means it’s going to last a lot longer and I usually apply my face masks after I have come out of the shower so my face is still a little damp as it makes it easier to spread around.
Washing the mask off was a little bit of a pain because I found that it sometimes clumps together but the end results are well worth the extra little bit of time. The mask always leaves my skin feeling so soft and super clean and I’m so desperate to give the others a try because I’m sure I will love them just as much as Bunny Moon.
Have you tried any other the Lush Jelly Face Masks?